madnessisonlyastateofmind asked: What's wrong?
Everything and nothing.
I have a confirmed place to study my favourite subject at university. I am surrounded by wonderful people. I live in a beautiful house, with books, art materials, instruments and everything else I could want. I have 5 pets of my own. My family love me. On the surface, everything is perfect.
I think the best way to describe what is wrong is the purple icing analogy Thea made yesterday: what’s the point of having nice things if you don’t share them?
Loneliness is what is wrong with me. I’ve tried to fix it by starting relationships with the wrong people for me, which in the long run only made things worse as I slowly realized compromising is no substitute.
The only way I can describe it is being behind a wall of glass- you can see people and talk to them fine, but they stay at arm’s length. I feel isolated from everyone around me. It’s not bad enough to make me feel suicidal or anything, it’s nowhere near that point so please don’t worry about me, it’s just enough to make it hard to smile sometimes.
feeling very very low…
just feel like nothing’s worth it anymore….
I know this will pass, but for the moment I feel very alone.
madnessisonlyastateofmind asked: If you could have your life narrated by one person who would it be?
Interesting question. Sometimes if I do something stupid/ something weird happens, Russell Howard’s voice starts narrating in my head, so I choose him. xD
Music video by Rise Against performing Swing Life Away. (C) 2005 Geffen Records
such a beautiful song.
-cuddle me when I’m scared
-cuddle me when I’m happy
-cuddle me when I’m sad
-in fact, just cuddle me all the time.